Is it possible??

Yes its great to feel like you in love but is true love possible? and how do we know its true?

everyone seems to think love is about showing affection but it shouldnt only be that.
You should be able to talk for hours about anything, you should be so confident with each other just like best friends, you should love spending time with each other just taking without needing the physical to keep the relationship going.

if you have all this then maybe you could call it true love but to be honest i dont no if you can ever have all of this, its just to much.

is it possible?

"when you 15 and somebody tells you they love you, your gunna believe them." -Taylor Swift

Lies, secrets and bitchiness!!!

i thought we were over all this backstabbing crap!
but no obviously not. All i seem to hear these days is people talking about others behind their back and to be honest im sick of it, its pathetic!

and then theres all the secrets!! theres so many to handle. everyone is keeping something for someone or from someone. you cant talk openly to anyone anymore.

i dont want any part in this bitchiness that seems to be going on at the moment because its not doing anyone any good. its changing you and im not the only one who thinks so.

can we just grow up and get over it! whether it be the bitchiness about who likes who and who is getting with who, or just the secrets about everything!

it was never like this before, so why now??

officially cracked

ok so all this pressure has actually gotten to me. i have officially cracked under pressure.

i was studying before (i no its amazing) and i couldnt concentrate and i just got soo frustrated with myself because i couldnt do any of it! and then when mum tryed to talk to me about it i cryed! i mean come on! theres no need to cry! but i did because i know im going to fail and im just so stressed about it all.

i cant do anymore studying or i will actually go insane, iv forgotten all the important stuff i need to know and im going to fail!

so its official.
Holly Harrex has failed her exams!

to much...

so much is happening and changing these days, im getting all caught up and stressed about it all.
theres friends im worried about, friends i need to talk to, a boyfriend, family and exams to fit in all at once! i need to decide my priorities but everything seems so important that its taking all mt energy just to think about it all.

i need i break, i just want it all to slow down or even stop just for a day so i can have some time to get myself sorted before i sort everything else.

theres always more information to learn, new things happening and new things im finding out that just complicate life even more and i feel like im going to explode. i cant handle this pressure.

i want to be there for my friends, to be someone they feel like they can talk to. i dont want to let them down.
so please know that you can come to me :) i always put friends first.

well i guess this is just the normal life of a teenager, i will adjust to it eventually but at the moment i will have to survive. and hopefully it doesnt become to much for me to handle.

just something

i felt the need to blog but i didnt reli no what to write but iv come up with a few things that dont really relate to each other so im just going to write :)

...dont let others rule your life, tell you what to do or change you into someone your not. i see this happening in most of my friends, they are all to worried about what others think that they change just to be accepted when really there is nothing wrong with who they are :).
or theres the people that act one way in front of one group of people but then a different way in front of others, they need to just be themselves and stop trying to please people, if you cant be yourself around your friends then think 'are they really your friends?'...

...dont be afraid to state your opinion, its your opinion and no-one can judge you for it. if you have something to say just say it! lol sometimes its good to write something about a friend if its a concern etc because then it can break the ice for talking about it to your friend because it will let them no that you have concerns. so dont be afraid :) just write...

...i no iv gone on about not fitting into groups at school etc but iv now realised that you can never fully fit in, there will always be atleast one person that your friends are friends with that you can never feel fully accepted by. so at the moment i think im quite happy with were i stand with my friends and feeling accepted. i will always want to be accepted by more people but the reality is that it will never happen so im happy with my social situation at the moment for once :)...



well thats my thoughts for the day :)
i suppose they kinda did relate to each other.



xoxo

life mottos

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry show life a thousand reasons to smile"

im guna try live by this one and at the moment it seems pretty easy because there is so much in my life to smile about. but then theres the days that just make you want to cry which is going to make living by this harder but with the help of friends etc i think i can do it :)

i just want to live a non depressing life because im sick of this sad depressing one where one day your happy and the next you dont want to live any longer.

so im determined to make this non depressing life work :) and just maybe it might rub off on others :) (if i dream hard enough)

"i dont regret the things iv done, i regret the things i didnt do when i had the chance"

i know that in a few of my last emails i go on about regrets etc but im over that now, i now realise that all these things have just made me stronger so that now i can not make the same mistakes again :)

iv learnt that before i label something as a regret i need to talk about it with someone first so then i dont get all down about it for no reason because most of the time my 'regrets' are really nothing and they are just life lessons that everyone goes through.

so the things i have done are not a problem its the things i havent done that i need to work on so i plan to do that and hopefully i succeed because i dont want to be worrying about nothing anymore :)

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i dont no what to think or feel anymore!
im confused about how i should be feeling right now?
my emotions and feelings are just all twisted and confused and i dont no what to do about this situation im in.

i need help, someone to talk to or maybe i just need confidence in myself?

i just dont no if what im doing is right?