why?

with all this shit going on around me why haven't i cracked and gone off the edge.

why am i still here?

scared to love

im sorry and i truely mean that, i know i hurt you, i really didnt want to but i was so confused i didnt no what to do so i ended up saying the wrong thing and destroying everything between us and the only thing i can do is say sorry so i hope thats enough. but if not im guna try explain it and i hope atleast this can make things a little better.

i wanted to love you, i wanted what we had before but i couldn't do it and that was nothing to do with you.
i guess my past boyfriends had left to much of an impact on me and i hadn't gotten over that.

i was scared to love you because all i could think of was the ending result which would be me hurt and i know you said you would never hurt be and i believe you but its just the last one said that to and he ripped my heart to shreds. i shouldn't compare you to him because i know your not him, i just got scared and i still am :(

i really wanted 'us' back but my heart made the decision for my mind that 'I'm to scared to love'


you told me to stop saying sorry but i want you to know i am sorry but ill leave you now.

bye

This is the part where someone gets hurt.

to many emotions and feelings all getting chucked around like they mean nothing, along with those three words that everyone uses so easily "i love you" i think people are forgetting the meaning of them.

we all go for what makes us happy but sometimes we dont no what that is and thats where people get hurt, when you experiment with love and when it doesnt work you move right on leaving the other person behind hurt.

as teenagers we need to take time to figure out if this is right before we experiement because yes we all get hurt but sometimes we can stop the heartbreak that happens.

so just think...

So Confused and unsure how to handle this situation.

everythings happening at once and leaving me no time to think things through but i think we are ok with where we are now and i think i am happy with that.

i just dont no, all i know is that i dont want to get hurt like last time.

xo

a song that i can reli relate to :) so i thought id share it

Another you- Cascada

So many times i was alone and couldn't sleep, you left me drowning in the tears of memory.

and ever since you've gone iv found it hard to breathe coz there was so much that your heart just couldnt see,

a thousand wasted dreams rolling off my eyes, times been healing me and i say goodbye,

Coz i can breathe again, dream again, ill be on the road again, like it used to be the other day, now i feel free again, so innocent coz someone makes me whole again for sure, ill find another you.

could you imagine someone else is by my side iv been afraid i couldnt keep myself from falling, my heart was always searching for a place to hide, could not await the dawn to bring another day. your not the only one so hear me when i say the thoughts of you they just fade away,

Coz i can breathe again, dream again, ill be on the road again, like it used to be the other day, now i feel free again, so innocent coz someone makes me whole again for sure, ill find another you.

sometimes i see you when i close my eyes, your still apart of my life.

but i can breathe again, dream again, ill be on the road again, like it used to be the other day, now i feel free again, so innocent coz someone makes me whole again for sure, ill find another you.

and the feeling of being left out returns...

its back :( i thought it would be gone for awhile but its returned, i should have known.

i look around and all i see is people getting along real well with each other in there groups then away in the corner theres me, the quiet girl who gets left behind.

i try to be louder, to talk more and to fit in but i cant because thats just not me, i cant be who im not.

i get so annoyed with myself for not joining in but as much as i try i actually cant, you may think its easy and i cant explain why i think its hard. its just who i am and thats all that explains it.

i have wished plenty of times that i could change that fact about me but iv learnt that as much as you dream and wish about it they dont come true.

well i guess this is me and im guna have to live with it. but it wont stop me wishing to change myself and aslong as that doesnt come true ill continue being the one standing in the corner, the quiet one getting left behind.