Just being me...

Look me in the eye, please don't walk away.

Be honest with me and say all the things you want to say, i can handle it.

Don’t lie to me, don't pretend to be interested in me.

The girl outside is so much stronger than the girl inside that can't hold on much longer.

The girl outside is just a cover up, inside I'm about to break.

I'm so weak inside but it'll never show.

I need to break apart from this image that I've made everyone see and I just need someone to believe that I can overcome these things that drag me down and make me want to cry.

I just want to be me and not worry about other things because I'm sick of crying myself to sleep each night over things and people that aren’t worth the tears.

drowning...

I'm sick of crying!
I'm drowning in my tears.

i just want out of this stupid life I'm living!
I'm over it!
all its doing is slowly tearing me apart and the point where i break is coming soon if this doesn't stop!



why do you bring him up every time i try to talk about 'us' ??
he has nothing to do with it!
can you please just forget what he thinks and how he acted when it happened and just tell me how you feel about it?
because that would reli help me.


is life going to get any better any time soon?
please say it will.


on a happier note I'm going out this weekend! yay for once i have a social life :) it shall be fun.


thank you for your support :) i really appreciate it. you have no idea how much you have helped.
thank you :)


xoxox
ily

happily ever after...?

i dreamed it was possible and i believed i was living my dream.

but of course it turned out to be just a stupid fairytale that would never come true :(

i love you but obviously that wasn't enough.

-i know we didn't talk much but we were happy weren't we?

well i suppose its happened and its over now so i guess il live and move on.

I'm sorry it didn't work , i tryed.

il always love you! (even if you don't want to hear it)

xoxo

i should have known.

i knew this wouldn't last...

-the happiness

-the feeling accepted for once in my life

i should have known my luck hadn't changed and i would always be the follower trying to fit in.

i know i cant blame you and I'm not but why did this have to happen and why did it have to affect me like this?

i had just found myself but now I'm lost again

i survived like this before so i can do it again i just hope I'm strong enough this time, because at the moment i feel like I'm going to crack and theres no-one that will help me get back together.

I'm over this, all of this.

i want out!

why cant dreams come true?

i dream of a world with no struggles and where everything just comes naturally without even thinking.

i bet your thinking 'haha yea right! like that's ever possible!'
but i girl can dream right?

every night i dream of our teenage struggles just disappearing so we can just be us and not have any worries.
but i guess i should give up on that dream.

i dream of being able to just go up to you with all the confidence in the world, hug you and have the longest conversation as possible with you without ANY silences.
but i keep building myself up to just be disappointed.

i dream of a place where i feel totally accepted by everyone around me.
but i guess il be looking for that place for awhile yet.



all these dreams and more and have any come true? i don't think so :(
and il be lucky if any do.
but i can still dream and wish for them to come true.


i dream of a world where dreams come true, and maybe then il be happy.

life

Sometimes things happen that you can’t control. It completely tears you up and there is nothing you can do. You try so hard to be strong and get through it but nobody can ever understand because they don’t know what it’s like.

love <3

its the most amazing feeling! and its all because of one amazing guy :)

I'm just your average girl, i no I'm not perfect and i may be as far away from perfect as possible but i know that when I'm with you i can just be my my normal average self with all my faults in full view and you will still love me for being me :)

you've made me feel accepted in this confusing life and i thank you for that :)
i can now walk around with a smile on my face because i no i belong somewhere.

everyday i look foward to your hug, longing to be in your arms for even a few seconds, if i could stay there i would :)

i treasure every minute with you never wanting them to end, i live for you :)

i used to dream of the perfect guy i would fall in love with then you took place of those dreams making them come true :)

i couldnt ask for anyone better, your amazing!

i love you heaps!!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

♥♥♥