and the feeling of being left out returns...

its back :( i thought it would be gone for awhile but its returned, i should have known.

i look around and all i see is people getting along real well with each other in there groups then away in the corner theres me, the quiet girl who gets left behind.

i try to be louder, to talk more and to fit in but i cant because thats just not me, i cant be who im not.

i get so annoyed with myself for not joining in but as much as i try i actually cant, you may think its easy and i cant explain why i think its hard. its just who i am and thats all that explains it.

i have wished plenty of times that i could change that fact about me but iv learnt that as much as you dream and wish about it they dont come true.

well i guess this is me and im guna have to live with it. but it wont stop me wishing to change myself and aslong as that doesnt come true ill continue being the one standing in the corner, the quiet one getting left behind.

Locked In My Heart Slowly Ripping It To Pieces

I dont go a day without thinking about you, your locked in my heart, i wish i still had you in my arms.

i miss it. the hugs, the kisses, the affection, everything about what we had. i just want it back! the feelings are still in my heart and the memories are still in my head.

i dont no what to do. i cant seem to move on from you and why i feel this way i dont no. i dont want to love you anymore but these feelings wont leave. and as long as they are there i will continue to hurt everytime i see other couples in each others arms because i had that untill you took it away from me and ended us. and ill continue to be alone untill your gone from my heart because with you in it i cant let anyone else in.

i let you in my heart, locked you in and threw away the key because i thought you would be mine forever.
but now looking back i cant believe i fell for you that much because i still cant unlock my heart to let you out and the only thing your doing in there is slowly ripping it apart.
and your just about ripping it into pieces beyond repair.


"why do i love you? i dont even want to" -westlife

still in my head.

i thought going away for awhile would help me to get over you and everything would go back to the way it was before but i guess it was wrong.

so now im home and still all i can think about is you, i lie awake in bed thinking about the things we did and all the memories.

i want you back but i know that isnt possible, i need to move on but that seems just as impossible :(

i never thought you would make such an impact on me like you did and i dont know why but i still love you. ♥

i never see you and i never txt or talk to you anymore so why do i still have all these thoughts about you going round my head? why do i still love you after everything that happened?

why are you still in my head?

can you please just leave.